The 1st day of November, also the 1st day of my one month gap. I still went to a monthly meeting of my company, listening to reports and plans. I leave the office without any farewell as my leader didn’t want to publish this. I went for lunch and hung out the whole afternoon with some of my co-workers. Usually, I tend to leave in between, just because I may suddenly feel bored. But that day I managed to stay last with them, ignoring the ideas of going home many times. I wanna try to enjoy it to the fullest. It turned out to be a great afternoon.
The evening I cooked for my boyfriend. Then we have a big row about our marriage. I know deeply he wants to get married soon, but he has to delay it as I don’t want at the moment. We both agreed on this but sometimes he said about his dream of wife and children, which makes me both sad and crazy. I am sad as because of me, he can’t make it. But I am crazy because if he agreed with me on this problem, he wouldn’t have said that as it does hurt me. That night, he told me about that stuff one more time. Then he told me that I can’t force him to give up on what he wants but he will no longer mention it so that I won’t be sad. To be honest, I am not sure if that is a good solution or it is just a way of not confronting with the fact.
29 days more.
San 
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