Don’t expect. Just hope for the best

People say that “don’t expect, just hope for the best” but I don’t know how to do both things at the same time.

I almost can’t concentrate on anything but thinking about it. Waiting, waiting, waiting. How terrible the feeling is, especially for an impatient girl like me!

Anw, in preparation for the failure, here are the things I would do

1. I still come back home for holiday. Thank God, mom’s health is better now.

2. Apply for the job in Malaysia

3. Apply for a job that is related to foreign factors.  It is high time to move out and deep into the new pool.

4. Start learning French. I just want to do it for so long.

5. Apply for Hanoi Google Developer Group. The position is still open.

6. Plant roses. Yes, i will plant some roses.

I am getting more calm on writing these texts but deep into my heart, I am feeling the terrible sadness. I am horrified by the disappointment. It is so sad that I even don’t know how I will react to it.

Life goes on. I will still find the happiness, the laugh, the smile but it is something that I am frightened to face.

Thinking about the so-called “connect-the-dot” does make me calm alot. There is someone out there arranging things for me. Everything finally will fall to its location. For sure.