These days

So we moved to the new house for some weeks. It is a 2 bed room apartment full of sunshine. I am not so excited actually but for the first time, after many years living in Hanoi, I got the feeling of truly home. Thank you my parents for working so hard and loving us so much to care for us.

Mom had her next checkup last week. I was very worried. She got her throat hurt again sometimes. I can see her worry in her eyes. Sometimes I forgot that she is still struggling with her cancer. It will be a long way for her, for us. I need to remind myself that how fragrant my mom is and that I have to take care of her.

Hanh, finally got married last week with his first love. So so so many people same with my age are getting married these days. It is like it’s a compulsory step that everyone has to take in their life at this exact age ( 24 in Western calendar and 25 in lunar calendar). You will be scared for being a weird, for not following the majority. It will be more terrible when your last close friend tells you that she is going to marry soon. Yesterday, Xuan told me that her bf’s family asked them to get married within next month. This was like a strike to her as she is not willing to get married yet. It was both funny and pity to see her almost crying when telling me “he is going to get married to me”. It should be a smile, instead. She kept asking me how I could delay my bf’s asking for marriage. She didn’t know that I am struggling also. I am not ready for such a long term commitment but I feel sorry to see him living alone in his own house. More importantly, he really wants to get married now and so does his family (and my family also). But I don’t gather enough courage to go ahead or break up. Somehow the relationship holds on with anxiety for both sides. I blamed for the tradition “not getting married at 26” but it’s my problem. Even if there were no such tradition, my bf still wants to get married at this age and I don’t. Hmmm. Anyway, it’s really scared when seeing so many weddings at this time of the year.

I bought a Mac yesterday, finally. I am typing these texts with my new Mac. Love it so much! I have to work harder and harder to afford it. I didn’t buy it because I care what people may think. I somehow don’t want to let anyone know that I’ve bought a Mac. I bought it because I love its elegance and lightweight. I enjoy it myself!

I love my new job but I still to lazy to work. I am very difficult to control my concentration though once I can, I work very efficiently. Next week, I will be in Thailand for Echelon 2015, one of the biggest tech events in the region. So excited to see it and so many works to do also.

Enough for quick update! See you.